Tuesday, February 20, 2007
9:53 PM
bahh... okkay... so i didn't go and visit my granny yesterday as i had planned... went to one of my cousin's church friend hse instead. haha. he stays at queenstown and i met my cousin at dobhy gourd (dunno how to spell lahs...) mrt at 5.30pm... haha. watied for her friends to arrive before heading off to harbourfront to take a bus to his place... went there with a mindset to really learn more about how the people from other churches relate to each other. that night was quite fun... had dinner there, and played a few games of blackjack... something that i learnt from that day was really how well they know each other. there wasn't much spritual connection that day... but i can sincercly feel the family connection between each other. i felt kinda weird due to the age gap between me and some of the rest (considering that our caregroup people are kinda around our age... and i'm a grad! making me one of the oldest...) ya... but they really know each other well. its like a true family... a feeling that i'm unable to discribe... something special that stood out... that something that i dun really feel in my own caregroup... yes... we do make an effort to know one another, talk to each other... but how much do we know about the people in our caregroup... the ones that we call brothers... family... how deep do we know them... how deep do we know ALL of them... effort was made... but often this only applies to just this someone... taking example... me and my sheep or me and alvin. the only people in my unit that i really know QUITE well... but still... not as well... another thing that i found out wad that they even know the friends of the people around them... despite them being from different school. think this is somthing that we have been struggling with... especially since we are known much as a chung cheng group... people get really sensitive when talking all about chungcheng... or stuffs of other schools... not sure if i am saying this in the correct way... but ya... haha... the people are also very interdepent. they are people who know that they are able to fall back onto their other cell mates or church mates when they are in trouble... kinda like the 10cent parable... i'm preety sure that when that situation comes... they will have one whole list of church members that they can seek help from...
went over to my cousin's hse to stay overnight as today we went to pasir ris park to have our "annual" picnic at our usual spot. haha. have been going there for picnic for quite some years already. didn't really do much there... only biked from PA over to downtown and back to PA again. haha. but it was qutie fun as i have not been out with my cousins for quite some time le...
went cycling with meiqing after that when we went back to my aunt's hse... cycled from pasir ris to changi village and back again. haha... was quite tiring... but really enjoyed it. enjoy talking with that cousin of mine. haha. found out that we have this habit of cycling off somewhere far after picnic everyyear.. haha...
watch men tu with three of my cousins (kelwin, meiqing and grace)... the show was great... and it was really a show that set me thinking... just how much would someone go to fill the emptyness in their heart... the price that one would pay... to get the hole filled just 1% for that 1min or so... is it really worth it? and is my heart really filled? filled by the love and grace of God? something that i wonder... why isit that at times... we would just fall into temption to try and fill that "hole" of ours... even when we claim that we already have the God element in our heart... isit really worth is to dive into temption just to fill up 1% of our hole for a mear one min or so? just how much do i trust in God... and just how much do i allow God to fill up my hole... isit 50%? 90%? 99.9999999999%??
oh... just want to take this space here to apologise to the people that i have "D-ed" against for the past two days... realised that my tone have been super D and really felt quite bad... feel that now of days... i get very comptitive very easily... even over small matter... and i do get quite D... in the wrong timing...
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Monday, February 19, 2007
11:24 AM
haha. second day of chinese new year... haha. and i'm here to blog again! hahah. seems to me its like a breakthough this chinese new year for me to start blogging like lesat once every two days. haha. lalal...
as usual... chinese new year is full of people flooding to my house... and this time round there are even more people this year as my mum invited people from my tuition centre over also... haha. so it was like it was so packed that some had to sit outside instead. hahaa. seen some people that i only see once a year.. haha. like my cousins and some other relatives...
went to my sister's nanny hse in the morning before anyone came... haha. her nanny's god son (i think) came over to visit her also. haha. chatted with one of them and haha. was kinda cool. the guy was very open and actually he was the one that initiated the conversation... kinda like somoene sowing on me like that. haha. and oh yah! haha. have set my eyes on his brother. he is going to mjc... hehe... can sow on! haha. lalalala... but kinda sad cause i didn't manage to get his number or anything. hehe... but i'm sure... with constant prayer God will bring me or others to him again=)
yups..... came back and as usual, my xiao gu came the earliest with her two princess. haha. everyone went like gaga over the babies... haha. the lift broke down just after the buffet came... which came after my xiao gu... haha... kinda lucky for them. cause the rest had to take another lift to the ten's floor before walking to my lobby and walk up again.. haha...
yups... the day kinda past with my relatives comming and then moving together to my other relatives like my grand uncle and my godma hse... haha. yups. tried to talk to some of the people that i rarely meet (kinda a suprise to me that i will even think of initiating a conversation with them cause usually i will just hide somewhere...)... got somewhere... but kinda sad that i did't really talk to them... didn't get to speak to one of my cousin, one that i would want to bring to church... ahah. hes going to tjc... and i hope that louis will somehow find him and sow on him. haha. had been asking fiona to get him to church when he was in gmss... hehe... lalalal
anyway... i'm bored at at home now... going over to my uncle's place tonight before heading over to my fourth aunt's place to stay over... going to have picnic tml and 2nd round of reniun dinner! haha... really looking forward to seeing more people that God place in my life come to know Him =)
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11:24 AM
haha. second day of chinese new year... haha. and i'm here to blog again! hahah. seems to me its like a breakthough this chinese new year for me to start blogging like lesat once every two days. haha. lalal...
as usual... chinese new year is full of people flooding to my house... and this time round there are even more people this year as my mum invited people from my tuition centre over also... haha. so it was like it was so packed that some had to sit outside instead. hahaa. seen some people that i only see once a year.. haha. like my cousins and some other relatives...
went to my sister's nanny hse in the morning before anyone came... haha. her nanny's god son (i think) came over to visit her also. haha. chatted with one of them and haha. was kinda cool. the guy was very open and actually he was the one that initiated the conversation... kinda like somoene sowing on me like that. haha. and oh yah! haha. have set my eyes on his brother. he is going to mjc... hehe... can sow on! haha. lalalala... but kinda sad cause i didn't manage to get his number or anything. hehe... but i'm sure... with constant prayer God will bring me or others to him again=)
yups..... came back and as usual, my xiao gu came the earliest with her two princess. haha. everyone went like gaga over the babies... haha. the lift broke down just after the buffet came... which came after my xiao gu... haha... kinda lucky for them. cause the rest had to take another lift to the ten's floor before walking to my lobby and walk up again.. haha...
yups... the day kinda past with my relatives comming and then moving together to my other relatives like my grand uncle and my godma hse... haha. yups. tried to talk to some of the people that i rarely meet (kinda a suprise to me that i will even think of initiating a conversation with them cause usually i will just hide somewhere...)... got somewhere... but kinda sad that i did't really talk to them... didn't get to speak to one of my cousin, one that i would want to bring to church... ahah. hes going to tjc... and i hope that louis will somehow find him and sow on him. haha. had been asking fiona to get him to church when he was in gmss... hehe... lalalal
anyway... i'm bored at at home now... going over to my uncle's place tonight before heading over to my fourth aunt's place to stay over... going to have picnic tml and 2nd round of reniun dinner! haha... really looking forward to seeing more people that God place in my life come to know Him =)
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
10:36 PM
Haha... its chinese new year eves... and i'm bored. haha. thats why i'm here to blog! hehe...
had service yesterday instead of today... haha... had a combined youth service and nexus was full house! haha. kinda miss the days when we have combined service on sat... hehe... anyway, had mm duty this week and was leading the team. actually went back to cchms before heading down to nexus with the rest of the dL gang =). it was fun and we went to find some of the teachers. Was watching the performance and know what! i actually saw a guy performing in CO that looks like sam!! same hairstyle, same specs... SAME SIZE! hurhur...
yups... went over to kongwah busstop to wait for ryunkiat... that stupid guy. made me wait for him. haha. actually thought we were going to be late but in the end we just made it to nexus on time. hehe
had our own eastDee steamboat at Marina Bay after service . AND AS USUAL... when we come together we always do something stupid on the way there... and there! haha. went to carrefour to get some drinks and snacks before heading over there. haha. played and made a lot of noise on the mrt =)... hehe... uploading the videos... you will be able to see it soon! haha. had great fun eating together and playing together. attacked dingkiat and stuffed chopsticks up his nose and we squash buns between his specs and his eyes. hehe.
Now for today. woke up kinda late cause i only slept at 4 the pervious night. woke up and went to have shopping with da xiong and my sister. haha. went shopping for shirts. daxiong bought 3 tee (2 from esprit and 1 from natrual project) and one wallet. and after A LONG consideration, i bought 2 tee from natrual project and a belt from topman... haha... spend around $90++ on clothes today. haha. yups. had a great time with daxiong and my sister ^.^
anyway.. off to watch tv and upload more videos unto utube =)...
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
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2:50 AM
Chosen Generation
Bethel Youth Alive
@live!
COME AS A PEOPLE WITH A DESTINY
COME LET US LIFT OUR VOICES
TO THE KING
LET NO THE FEAR OF DOUBT
BE PRESENT IN OUR HEARTS
LET'S JOIN OUR HANDS
AND PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME
FOR YOU ARE A CHOSEN PEOPLE,
A ROYAL PRIESTHOOD, A HOLY NATION
A PEOPLE BELONGING TO GOD
THAT YOU MAY DECLARE THE PRAISES
OF HIM WHO CALLED YOU
OUT OF DARKNESS
INTO HIS WONDERFUL LIGHT
LET US COME BEFORE HIM
WITH THANKSGIVING
LET EVERYTHING THAT HAS BREATH
PRAISE HIS NAME
LET US JOIN OUR HEARTS
IN CELEBERATION
A PEOPLE OF HIS CHOSEN GENERATION
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Thursday, February 15, 2007
2:37 AM
Haha... dunno why, but i suddenly got the desire to blog. haha. "here to sweep my blog" as i would have said in my many many past posts. yup =)
But before i start, blog viewers pls pray for Bryan as the doctor suspects that he has dengue fever. pray that God will heal him and that he get well soon =)
yups. haha
have been watching Let It Shine on youtube cause i've like missed all 20 esp of that show. haha. God again. has used the show to speak to me several messages that he want to part to me... But i must say that the actors kinda sux. cause they can't act. haha. okkays. nvm. back to the point.
yups... was actually watching is last night when i was deciding which course to go.... God spoke to me strongly about ow much i would actually go to achieve my dreams. And what are my dreams? how big are my dreams? how big are my dreams for God?... it really set me out to think how much would i actually pay to achive this big dream for God... even if everyone thinks otherwise... will i give up? will i give up in the midst of disappointments... midst of failures... but i'm really glad that God did reveal to me too.. that in the midst of disappointments... He is still always there for me. He will always send that special someone that will encourage me during all my failures. that special someone or maybe that manyones that will come and be with me during all my failures. the bunch of people that will stick with me when everyone gives up on me... =))
another think that God really spoke to me was how much would i actually go out to save one soul. even if it is that only one soul. that one soul that everyone say he hopeless. that one soul that even you find it hard to imagine him comming to know Christ. that someone that everyone dispies. God showed me that, He NEVER gave up on me... so i should not give up on that person also. many a times when i sow one a person. i often give up midway due to the fact that i'm discouraged and that i start to believe what the devil say; why bother about him. he's hopeless....
well. God is here to tell me. the person that sowed on me... never gave up on me. thats why i'm here today! here to enjoy the benifits of being a child of God... God never gave up on me... he never gave up on anyone. so must I! =))
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